I thought of a verse from the Judy collins song
Tears and fears and feeling proud to say I love you right out loud
dreams and schemes and circus crowds i've looked at life that way
but now old friends are acting strange they shake their heads they say i've changed
but somethings lost and somethings gained in living everyday
I've looked at life from both sides now from win and lose and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall I really don't know life at all.